Adding my midnight musings, updating now page

blog/FirstStepsToDigitalIndependence.html

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 title: First Steps to Digital Independence
 previous: independence
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 date: 2023-08-28
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 <h2>First Steps to Digital Independence</h2>

blog/MidnightMusings2024-09-26.html

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+id: mm
+title: Midnight Musings
+previous: fsdi
+date: 2024-10-01
+---
+<h2>Midnight Musings</h2>
+<p>
+    Last Wednesday night/Thursday morning I was awake for a few hours in the middle of the night.
+    Mind was racing and got it out on the page.
+    Some interesting thoughts, still processing.
+    I was going to edit it but decided to just post it as is.
+</p>
+
+<hr>
+
+<p>
+    I make my art.<br>
+    In words, in simple characters.<br>
+    In code.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    It is not traditionally beautiful.<br>
+    But it is to me.<br>
+    The purity of function.<br>
+    Not a clock cycle wasted on carrying out a useless task.<br>
+    Maybe I will learn to wrap that in an aestetic beauty someday.<br>
+    But that purity is the core of it.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    Words don't express things so clearly.<br>
+    The ideas they convey are not the black and white of machine instructions.<br>
+    So I shape them around what I want to say.<br>
+    Showing it in outlines and shadows.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    It is late...<br>
+    After midnight.<br>
+    I tried to sleep but was restless.<br>
+    My foot twitching as I lay in bed.<br>
+    My mind spinning working on the website.<br>
+    More data to store and organize.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    The functionality is small.<br>
+    Something that I can hold in my head all at once.<br>
+    I like this scale.<br>
+    One where I find myself coming alive.<br>
+    A passion, interest, even furvor that I don't normally find in myself.<br>
+    This is what it means to live, to work.<br>
+    To focus on one thing with all of its challenges.<br>
+    And see it through.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    Is it the passion that keeps me up?<br>
+    Or the fear that if I sleep it will leave me?<br>
+    The task can be picked up tomorrow.<br>
+    But the mind works when it decides to.<br>
+    I find it much easier to turn it on then off.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    So strange that my energy can come back fully without sleep.<br>
+    I was almost falling asleep in a work meeting at 16:00.<br>
+    Now almost 9 hours later I am more awake then I was all day.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    Committing these words to (digital) paper.<br>
+    Was wanting to write by hand but also not turn on any lights.<br>
+    So a tablet and stylus will do.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    Code is the modern magic...<br>
+    A magic, for there are many and it would be supremely arrogant to put my chosen sorcery above the others.<br>
+    We all have our chosen magics.<br>
+    Acts that feel divine.<br>
+    That we can't explain even if we can explain all that goes into them.<br>
+    For me it is creating and fixing things.<br>
+    Improving or modifying.<br>
+    The change.<br>
+    Trasition from one state to another.<br>
+    Broken to fixed,<br>
+    parts to whole,<br>
+    materials to a final object.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    In this way tools are my talismans.<br>
+    How I commune with this divinity of mine.<br>
+    My computer, keyboard, pens, saws, knives, screwdrivers... and everything else.
+</p>
+
+<p>
+    I was pondering why I always carry some basic tools with me even if I don't use them all that often.<br>
+    They are my connection to this.<br>
+    My acceptance and willingness to do this work wherever and whenever it is needed.
+</p>

templates/now.html

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 <p>
-    Last updated: 2024-09-07
+    Last updated: 2024-10-01
 </p>
 <h2>Work</h2>
 <p>
-    Still in Toronto, still working in software at Amazon.
+    Preparing for the spike of traffic over peak.
-    My team writes tools to help automate and test new machine setups.
+    Struggling with personal moral issues with the company as a whole (everyone I work with is great).
-    Working on fixing up and expanding a tool that I wrote earlier in the year that didn't quite make it into production.
+    Putting some last touches on a project that I have been working on for a while, hoping to get it out this week.
-    After the meeting showing the tool the team it was for had a couple more features they wanted added before it was deployed.
-    The configurations had changed before I got those done and some parts had to be redesigned/rebuild.
-    Making it more adaptable to keep this drift from happening in the future.
 </p>
 <h2>Life</h2>
 <p>
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     We have booked a venue and a date!!
     So excited and frees us up to start booking a lot of other stuff.
     Found a wonderful venue that incorporates a lot of nature and is comfortably in our budget.
+    Spent every moment outside of work for a week putting together our wedding website, and setting it up for people to RSVP and organize all the data.
+    Was so much fun to use my skills to build something for the wedding and makes me feel really connected to the process.
 </p>
 <p>
-    Actually planning for the long term financially now that I am lucky enough to have a job that leaves me with money to save and invest after the bills are payed.
+    Working to find the path that feels right for me career wise.
-    It still feels new to have that cushion and to plan long term, definitely enjoying it.        
+    Exploring various options and starting to look for places that align personally with my values.
 </p>
 <h2>Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu</h2>
 <p>
-    Got my blue belt just before the new year.
     The team here at GB Toronto has become an external family.
     I am so grateful for the community.
 </p>
 <p>
-    Competiton coming up on September 14th.
+    Lost at the recent competition to a flying arm bar.
-    Not may of us from the school are going to compete but there are some members coming out to support.
+    Was pretty cool if I do say so myself.
-    Pulled back on training a bit after the last competition to make sure I had some balance in my life.
+    Pulled back on training a bit to balance various activities in life a little better.
-    I want this training to be sustainable for the long term.
+    Looking forward to a more relaxed winter season without needing to prep for any competitions.
-    Just competing in Gi this time as opposed to both Gi and No-Gi.
 </p>
 <h2>Learning</h2>
 <p>
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 </p>
 <h2>Tinkering</h2>
 <p>
-   This website is the main thing that I have been working with.
+    The last week has been spent entirely on the wedding website.
-   Added a <a href="/uses">uses page</a> recently with just a list of the common things that I use every day.
+    Would link here but we have it shut down for guest access only because it contains a lot of personal information.
-   Going to add links and other curated stuff next.
+    It was the first time that I have done any web development work with cookies or authentication systems.
-   I love these pages on other personal websites and want to contribute to that.
+    That was really cool to figure out and implement.
 </p>
 <p>
-    I am looking at restructuring the site into more of a <a href="https://hapgood.us/2015/10/17/the-garden-and-the-stream-a-technopastoral/">garden than a stream.</a>
+    I like that I got to build it myself and have it customized slightly for each guest with a personal message and using proper names instead of general "you" etc.
-    It is a structure that I find much more interesting and fits with how I want to build much more.
+    Also set up a database to store all the various RSVPs, seating arrangements, and menu choices once we get to that point.
-    Treating most things as timeless and growing as opposed to a strict timeline.
-    It is how I keep most of my personal notes, dates more of as reference than things needing to be in order.
-    Will see how that works.
 </p>
 <p>
-    Set up my own code forge to be able to share my code without having to post it to github.
+    It was the first time that I gave myself a personal project and a short deadline (a week essentially) and hammered it out around work.
-    Can see it <a href="https://code.achubb.com">here</a>.
+    Really pleased with that level of depth and focus, very excited to try and keep that momentum going working on other stuff.
-</p>
+    Some extra things to add to this site, and some other things I have been thinking about.
-<p>
-    I dove hard down the custom keyboard rabbit hole this past week.
-    Going to be making a second one for myself to keep at work, and making one for each of my brothers.
-    Can (and have somewhat been) getting lost in the minutiae of layouts, switches, design.
-    It has been a lot of fun (and I apologise to my fiance for the constant clicking as I test out different switches).
 </p>
 <p>
     Awstin