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96 lines
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id: gs
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title: Graduate School
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previous: srw
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next: pwi
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date: 2022-01-07
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<h2>
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Graduate School
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</h2>
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<p>
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I recently finished my Master's Degree.<br>
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And my feelings on it are mixed.<br>
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On one hand I am proud of the work it took.<br>
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Of what I learned.<br>
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And having that recognized.<br>
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On the other hand I don't think it was the right decision.
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</p>
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<p>
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It was expensive.<br>
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And took more time than the material needed.<br>
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Had I been more disciplined.<br>
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And thought through what I needed to learn.<br>
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I could have learned the material in a fraction of the time.<br>
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I could have saved almost $25000.<br>
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I could have shown my work on my website.<br>
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And used that on my resume instead of a degree.
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</p>
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<p>
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It worked out in the end because I got lucky.<br>
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I graduated at the right time to get a job through a new grad program.<br>
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But I don't want to confuse luck with making the right decision.<br>
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Whether a decision is right or not is not only based on the outcome.<br>
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We need to see what we did right when things failed.<br>
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And what was wrong when we succeeded.<br>
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We don't control the outcome of many of our decisions.<br>
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There are too many factors.<br>
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So we decide with the information on hand.
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</p>
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<p>
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The right decision is the one we would make if we had to roll the dice on the outcome.<br>
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Again and again.<br>
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If I had to roll.<br>
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I think the better choice would have been to choose myself.<br>
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I could have moved faster.<br>
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I could have saved a lot of money.<br>
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I could have taken the process into my own hands.<br>
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And shaped it into something of my own.<br>
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Rather than following a process laid out for me.
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</p>
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<p>
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It would have taken more care and attention.<br>
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As anything truly worth doing deserves.<br>
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Everything we do.<br>
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Can be made wonderful with focussed effort.<br>
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Or can be boring and lifeless.<br>
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If we are not paying attention.<br>
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I chose the easier route.<br>
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That did not require the same care.
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</p>
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<p>
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Regardless of the fact that it turned out well.<br>
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Abdicating the requirement of making my own path.<br>
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Was not the correct decision.<br>
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I chose not to analyze my options.<br>
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As carefully as I could have.<br>
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I didn't think.<br>
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I didn't explore.<br>
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I didn't trust myself.<br>
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That I would end up in the right place.<br>
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Under my own guidance.
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</p>
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<p>
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While the outcome was successful.<br>
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I think that what I learned most.<br>
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From this experience.<br>
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From this success.<br>
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Is to be more present.<br>
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To put more care and focus in everything I do.<br>
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In every decision I make.<br>
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To make sure that my process is as right as I can make it.<br>
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And stop worrying about the outcomes.
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</p>
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<p>
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I learned the most.<br>
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By realizing the things I missed.<br>
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As opposed to the things that I did.
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</p>
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